You're Not the One Who Will Achieve Your Dreams

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And of course, when we say these things, we are right.

But the person who achieves our greatest dreams isn't that person we are talking about. It is the person we will become. The person who doesn't have those limits. It is a person who has moved so far beyond these self-defining limits that they are practically a different person.

Why is Growth Painful?

The fact that our fears can come to define us means that overcoming them means fundamentally altering who we are. To overcome our fears and grow past them involves changing our sense of self. For significant growth, this can be such a huge change that is actually involves becoming a different person.

It's like death in a way.

In Buddhist theory, the self does not exist. The self is not composed of passing thoughts, nor is it composed of the aging mortal body, nor is it composed of temperamental emotions. Thus, it is an illusion, constructed by our minds to give us a sense of coherence.

But sometimes, coherence is bad, especially if it is the coherence of a limitation. The possibility to be someone else, someone who doesn't have your current limits, is an empowering idea.

But it is also terrifying, because it essentially means accepting that YOU as you are now will not exist.

Of course, YOU don't actually exist at all, right now.

We've Done This Before

We have already become different people. When we made the transition from infant to child, child to adolescent, adolescent to young adult, and so on, we completely altered more than just our bodies. Our worldviews changed rapidly. Our values and morals underwent massive shifts.

It was only once we became adults and grew attached to our hard-earned perspectives that we started resisting growth and change. We wanted to feel that we had things figured out, which automatically precludes the possibility for additional growth. We became attached to our Selves, so we grew crusty and we stopped growing and changing.

I think this is why serving a higher cause is so empowering. We aren't attached to our Self so much as serving our cause, and that gives us the ability to change to suit the needs of making that cause a reality.

So, in order to make your dreams a reality, accept that you won't be around to make your dreams a reality. You must let go of who you are now in order to accept you can become.

I've said before that we must accept ourselves as we are now in order to grow, because the person we are now is the seed for who we will become. Inconsistency and paradox is part of life. Choose the perspective that does you the most good in a given situation.

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